I applied to the Ryerson Performance acting program and part of the requirement was to write why you want to be a Performing Actor. This is what I gave them. I was supposed to have an interview to discuss what I wrote...but they neglected that portion of the audition and so I never got to explain the bottom portion of this short essay. I wrote it for my Grandmother who passed away on January 14th 2009. A couple hours after i had applied to my universities. It was because of her that I fought for my dream. She was always happy to hear what I wanted to be when i was older. She never judged, or said that it was a mistake or I would never make it. She was just happy for me. I miss her immensely. I wanted her to be apart of this journey, even though she's no longer in the living world. I figured if she was in this essay when I auditioned, apart of her would be there in the room.
You know that feeling you get when you listen to a song and it just hits you? All
of a sudden you’re lost in another person’s words. The worlds of sadness, anger and
fear that follow us around disappear and for a moment everything is going to be okay.
That’s what acting does for me. It frees me. I know that’s an odd thing to say since
acting means you’re a character on paper, but I get to bring that person to life. To be apart of a story worth telling…is an honour. To make something that would actually affect somebody. Someone we’ve never met but for 2 hours we can have a dialogue with that person—speak to them. And maybe, just maybe illuminate a small part of their world by telling a story in ours.
I follow the show "One Tree Hill" and it spoke to me almost every episode. But
there was one episode in season 3 that truly pulled me in – Episode 16: With tired eyes tired minds and tired souls we slept. For 45 minutes I found myself wandering the world of Tree Hill and seeing it through the character of Jimmy Edwards (Colin Fickes). Colin brought Jimmy to life and his "story-telling" reminded me why I’m committed to make performance acting my career. A lot goes into creating these stories – great writing, great direction, the perfect song and an actor who isn’t afraid to go all the way.
Nothing else makes me feel like me. After a long journey to find myself, I’m
not letting go. I will always be a performing actor.
Someone once wrote: "Sometimes the beauty is in the attempt. Took a shot and
gave it everything we could and did it well." He was right. If we don’t try we’ve only set ourselves up to fail. What kind of world would we live in if we were too afraid to try? How many what ifs do we want following us? I’ll always give the best of me because my heart is fighting for a chance.
There are things worth fighting for
There are people worth fighting for
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This part is for her
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At this moment, there are 6 billion, 4
hundred, 71 million, 8 hundred, 18 thousand, 6
hundred, 71 people in the world. Some are
running scared...some are coming home. Some
tell lies to make it through the day others
are just now facing the truth. Some are evil
men at war with good, and some are good
struggling with evil. 6 billion people in the
world, 6 billion souls -- and sometimes...all
you need is 1."
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Unfortuately, I messed up, due to being super nervous after watching great auditions from everyone. I wasn't accepted to their program. But I am proud of myself for trying. For going to Toronto, spending the money to apply, and audition ($75 total >< ), and putting myself out there. Life is too short to have the what ifs, and now I don't need to ask myself the What If for this.
