Do you ever feel like it doesn't matter anymore?
That it doesn't matter how many days you wake up after today, you'll still be the same?
They say, "You always have tomorrow"
But you'll always be the same person. I believe that people can't change. They can hide, but they'll never be able to become someone new. It's impossible. You were born to be who you already are. There are events, or situations and people that affect who you want to become for a split second. But you will never be able to follow through in becoming it. You could last one day, a week or five minutes with the mind of who you think you are, but you can't fight you're natural instincts. You revert back to who you really are. You are just you. And we all have to accept that.
Every time we fight with ourselves, it gets worse. You're afraid to be alone with your thoughts. It's like the person you wanted to be is a constant voice. The voice that heckles you, trying to get you to change. It begins when you're alone but eventually it's every where. Every where you look there's a memory. Even when you thought you were happy with what you are, it gives you doubt.
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Hmm..It's weird that you wrote this because it's exactly what i'm going through. It kind of made me think back to my earlier blogs where I said that I wanted to change and become better. Strangely enough it hasn't happened yet. I tried to change and everyday i felt like the old me was kicking and screaming until he came out again. Now i'm back at square 1 and I have no idea where the hell i'm going or who the hell I am.
i do believe that somes people can never change because they have a set mentality.
there are some rare cases however hope u feel better.
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