Midnight Sun

I wish there was an Edward Cullen out there for me. Something to hold onto. Hoping that I may have love that he and Bella shared. Their story was nothing like I'd expected. To me it's the greatest love story. I could never put the book down, i was so overwhelmed in their world that I wished I could be there. To escape what life I have now. To some my life looks pretty good. I have middle class homes (mother's and father's) and currently I have satisfied way of living. Sort of.

As I read the Twilight series, I found Bella and I had a lot in common. The way we regarded others emotions and put their feelings and needs above our own. We are also shy. We shy away from the unwanted attention and feel awkward when it's being given. You can also read how we feel thru our eyes. And not to mention the clumsiness. Our type of clumsiness I feel differs. Hers is physical, mine seems to more of the mental clumsiness, tho I do have my moments of the physical. I easily fall out of a conversation, immersed in my own thoughts. Only the sound of my name pulls me back to the person I seemed to have left. Explaining my words seems to be where my clumsiness comes in. I get all flustered unable to restore things before an incident. Also, like Bella I found myself falling in love with this Edward Cullen character. Before you label me a complete freak I'll explain.

While I read about his tendencies through Bella's perspective, you could not help but feel the way she does for him. I couldn't help but admire his characteristic traits, physical and mental. I smiled everytime he was making Bella smile. It was the first time I read a book without trying to place myself in the story, I was just watching, wishing, hoping and loving all through out the book. Without knowing it til I finished the series I realized their world took me out of my own and brought me there. As I read the last sentence in Breaking Dawn I realized that it was over, "And then we continued blissfully into this small but perfect piece of our forever." and then... The End. No more books to run to, their story was complete and they had their happy ending.

My mind began wondering if I could ever have a story like that. Something unordinary, someone to catch me off gaurd and change my life forever. Someone like Edward.

I know this sounds so silly, but come on. A chance to believe in myths and fairytales. Something or someone that isn't supposed to exist does. Think about how we live, imagine adding vampires and werewolves to it. Or witched and wizards for that matter. Think about how different our worlds would be. Can you honestly say you'd rather stick to the one you have now, without any thought to how it could be?

Stephanie Myer's writing provoked me to feel every feeling Bella had. It was a nice change from how I felt in my own world.