I'm eighteen today. Something I wish I could say with pride. To become eighteen in my culture means you're coming of age, You are finally an adult. However I see it as a half adult. I can vote and buy lottery tickets, but I cannot drink(not that i want to), gamble at a casino, or fight for your country. Once you can legally do all those things I believe you've become an adult.
With that said, I am only half of who I can't wait to be, but will always run from. Many people have done something that has directed them in the path of their future and their dreams. But I have not. And that scares me. I'm 18 and have yet to follow my dreams.
My heart knows what those dreams are, and I'm afraid to wake up to reality. I'm afraid to let my dreams die. I've made subtle comments about certain careers, but there is always one person who will tell you why you shouldn't pursue it.
I get so sick of it sometimes. I wish I wouldn't wake up. Because who I am in my dreams is a hundred times better than who I am awake.
Nine Minutes to go and sit here staring at these words and they aren't what I want them to be.
Eight Minutes ... on the edge of seventeen
Seven minutes -- wasting tonight's' dreams on marking a day
Six minutes ** I can't tell if I'm excited, or dreading this day
Five minutes I'll admit, I am a cry-a-holic Emotional Champ
Four Minutes {to save the world}
Three Minutes ~ watching the second hand
Two minutes ~~ my mind races trying to remember all I have loved at 17
One Minute £ My heart got stuck on something
Zero
I am .klla and I am here.
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2 comments:
First off, the four minutes thing is pure genius. It's weird to thing about we're going to do with our lives and where we'll end up in the future. I've always dreamed of just leaving one day. Not telling anyone where i'm going, but just knowing that i'm going somewhere I want. Not because 50 million people did it before me, and not because there's too many problems that I can't deal with, but because it's what I want and no one can take that away. You don't have to follow your dreams yet, because if you look around, what person your age can say they have. My heart knows what my dreams our as well, and every day it reminds me that those dreams are there as guiding points. Maybe I won't follow them, but they'll bring me to something I never thought of before. Don't hide from who you are. I'll still like you regardless of the person you become. Never hide from it Klla.
ps
happy birthday
wow ^ j u beat me again! err. haha i loved "Five minutes I'll admit, I am a cry-a-holic Emotional Champ
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lol
great blog and happy brithday!
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