i feel like having that bath just washed away all my sins and hate and regrets.
i've awoken the other side of me
i need to get my act together and now i can.
Monday, December 10, 2007
the other side of me
I took a me day today. I went to school only to put up a board for student council, and then i came back home. After finishing a week worth of work i wanted to stay home and just sleep. Some times i wish i wouldn't have to get up, but i know i have to becuase i have things to do. So to cap off the night before i start my homework, i took a bubble bath. and while i laid there, i let my thoughts wonder. mainly they were of how i hate my life, or rather how i am living it. Then i stopped myself. I am tired of playing the victim. I'm tired of always thinking about the downside to things. i need a new approach to life. i have a pretty good life compared to others, and im abusing it. You only get one life, and luckily I've realized my mistakes before it's too late. I felt beautiful when i was lying on my bed with my back exposed. i felt vunerable to the world, but at the same time i felt free. i had nothing to hide. I always thought if i was skinnier, i'd be happier, but i know now it doesnt matter how i look, it's how i feel. and how i feel is dependent on my friends and the people i surround myself with. they are the ones who accept me as i am.
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2 comments:
Good for you!!! I always tried to play the victim, and i saw how it made my life crappy. I finally realized that there are good things and good people in my life, it changed the way I act and think. It's great that your realizing you have a good life, and aren't taking it for granted any more!
Sweet! I'm so glad you finally realized the way you're ACTUALLY supposed to be :)
I'm happy. Stay that way, you look much better happy than sadd!
:)
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